Tuesday, December 30, 2003

Boredom

I'm bored. I've read 5 books so far on break. Next on my list is my book about Catholicism, but I want something to do. Something to break up the monontony of break. Oh well, I might get a babysitting job tomorrow which is really good because I am in desperate need of cash. Desperately.

Monday, December 29, 2003

The Check's In The Mail

So yeah, I overdrew my checking account. Go me. With fees and everything, I'm $82.76 in the hole. Luckily I called the bank this morning and since I'm 2 hours away from them they said I could mail a check to cover it, so the check is in the mail.

I feel really blah right now, I've been on semester break for 2 weeks now, I'm entering the third, I go back to school in a week and I'm bored as hell. I'm reading my 5th book since I've been on break and I've still got a pile of books to read, I've bought just a few while I've been home, but I need something to entertain me on the days that I don't have any classes next semester. But part of why I'm so bored when I'm at home is that I really want nothing to do with my graduating class. The people that I went to High School with aren't really the kind of people that I want to be involved with. They were mean, spiteful, snobby and once we all graduated I really haven't heard anything from the people that I thought were my friends. Now I've got my friends at college and they are the kind of people that I want to hang out with. Unfortunately when we're on break, they're all about 2 hours away. But most of them I'll get to see next week so I just have to surivive boredom for another week and teach my dad how to knock on my door before opening it..

Amazed

Everytime our eyes meet, This feelin' inside me,
Is almost more than I can take, Baby when you touch me,
I can feel how much you love me, And it just blows me away,
I've never been this close to anyone or anything, I can hear your thoughts,
I can see your dreams,

I don't know how you do what you do, I'm so in love with you,
It just keeps gettin' better, I want to spend the rest of my life,
With you by my side, forever and ever, Every little thing that you do,
Baby I'm amazed by you.

The smell of your skin, The taste of your kiss,
The way you whisper in the dark, Your hair all around me,
Baby you surround me, You touch every place in my heart,
You know it feels like the first time, Everytime,
I want to spend the whole night in your eyes,

I don't know how you do what you do I'm so in love with you,
It just keeps gettin' better, I want to spend the rest of my life,
With you by my side, forever and ever, Every little thing that you do,
Baby I'm amazed by you.

Sunday, December 28, 2003

I'm old *cries*

I was curling my hair this morning while I was getting ready for church and I found my first gray hair. Excuse me while I go lay in bed and cry all day, I'm only 20!!

Saturday, December 27, 2003

Why I should not be allowed near any place that accepts money...

Mom and I hit the post-Christmas sales yesterday. Yeah.

$12 at Target: new snow brush for car, half off Christmas CD and half off winter stationary (everyone who I write to, you're going to get fun paper next time)

$15 at Bath and Body Works: refills for my wallflower at school and a plug adaptor so that it doesn't block the other outlet

$50 at Barnes and Noble: go LOTR boxed set! Woohoo! And a desk calendar all about being a lefty and a romance novel

Then today

$12 to get my hair cut, including tip

$10 to go to the movies: $6 for the ticket and $4 for a bucket of popcorn that I only ate half of because I couldn't get my snuck in drink open. Bah, all through LOTR without anything to drink, after I ate half of a bucket of popcorn

Friday, December 26, 2003

Christmas Reprise

For all that buildup Christmas goes by so fast.

Christmas Eve was nice, we spent it with my Dad's family at Grandma's new house. Ok so letting my Aunt Denise's dog lick the plates after dinner wasn't a good idea because the dog farted all night and cleared four of us off the couch at one point, but it's a good lesson learned. It was nice being somewhere where we actually had room to spread out and enjoy the night, instead of being crammed into the tiny apartment that she used to live in above her restaurant. It was a relaxing night and then we went to Mass and that was nice, as it always is.

Christmas Day was just long. It took me a while to fall asleep at night and then when I finally did fall asleep I got woken up by a thud, which I learned in the morning was the chair that Mom was standing on breaking underneath her and her landing on her tailbone. Ouch. Since we were having Christmas dinner at our house because Grandma was still sick, I got up at the lovely hour of 6:30am (I'd forgotten that that time existed since I've been home on break) and helped Dad make the stuffing and stuff the turkey. 22 pounds of turkey to feed 14 people. Got some nice gifts from mom and dad, a new suede coat, some totally awesome pants, kickass skirt and a sweater that I really liked, plus some Princess seat covers for my car (Yay! I don't have to sit on metal in my car anymore!). And it was a white Christmas too! We got about 6 inches of snow, and the plow did it's lovely trick of leaving all the snow from the road by the end of our driveway (I just love living on the circle of our road) so my brother and I got assigned the task of shovelling the driveway and all the snow that the plow left for us. I'm not used to that kind of back breaking labor :P

Everyone came over for dinner at about 2:30 and it took all of 2.5 seconds for the living room to turn into the land of wrapping paper. Of course, having my two cousins under the age of 3 doesn't really help with that. It was really fun though, especially the look on Michael's face when he found out that his Elmo did the hokey pokey. I got more clothes from Grandma and Uncle Tom and a new pair of leather boots. But I think that the gift that I'm going to have the most fun with is the chocolate fondue pot that I got from my cousin Sara and her boyfriend Jason. Chocolate covered strawberries anyone?

Dinner was kind of amazing, we had our big dining room table all folded out and a card table at the end of it with Michael and Matthew's high chairs at the end of the dining room table. 14 of us around that table, and baby Camden getting passed between Sara and Jason because he wanted to be part of dinner. I'm surprised that the table didn't bow under the amount of food that we had on it. Wow.

After dinner we watched Finding Nemo and Matthew (who has just realized that he can walk and run) spent most of the rest of the evening running between the kitchen and living room and taking headers all over the place. It really was a fun day. And Grandma loved the teapot that I made her.

After everyone finally left, we headed over to some friend's of the family's and stayed there for a few hours just talking and visiting. Fun stuff.

And of course I took plenty of Christmas pictures

And now today is the day of resting and hitting all of the post Christmas sales.

Thursday, December 25, 2003

Merry Christmas

I love Midnight Mass, I really do. I've gone to Christmas Mass at many different times and Midnight is my favorite, it just feels the most festive. Maybe it's because it seems like the first Mass where you really are celebrating the birth of the Lord. Yes, you celebrate it at the other Christmas Eve Masses, but it's just not the same, and on Christmas Day, Christ has already been born. Midnight is just different.

Merry Christmas everyone! I'm off to bed, I've got to get up in a few hours to help with the turkey

Wednesday, December 24, 2003

The Reason for the Season

Luke 2:1-20

In those days Caesar Augustus issued a decree that a census should be taken of the entire Roman world. (This was the first census that took place while Quirinius was governor of Syria.) And everyone went to his own town to register.
So Joseph also went up from the town of Nazareth in Galilee to Judea, to Bethlehem the town of David, because he belonged to the house and line of David. He went there to register with Mary, who was pledged to be married to him and was expecting a child. While they were there, the time came for the baby to be born, and she gave birth to her firstborn, a son. She wrapped him in cloths and placed him in a manger, because there was no room for them in the inn.

And there were shepherds living out in the fields nearby, keeping watch over their flocks at night. An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. But the angel said to them, "Do not be afraid. I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord. This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger."
Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying,
"Glory to God in the highest,
and on earth peace to men on whom his favor rests."
When the angels had left them and gone into heaven, the shepherds said to one another, "Let's go to Bethlehem and see this thing that has happened, which the Lord has told us about."
So they hurried off and found Mary and Joseph, and the baby, who was lying in the manger. When they had seen him, they spread the word concerning what had been told them about this child, and all who heard it were amazed at what the shepherds said to them. But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart. The shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all the things they had heard and seen, which were just as they had been told.



It seems today that with all of the commercialism out there that people forget the true meaning of the Christmas season. Let's all take a minute to reflect on what Christmas means to us and the reason that we have to celebrate it.

Phew

Oh man am I glad that my parents weren't home earlier. I was lighting my fudge candle and as I ignited the match, it broke in my hand and the lit end fell onto an old blanket that I had sitting on the floor. Luckily I grabbed the match and stomped on the blanket (which reminds me, I don't think I'll ever get that kind of blanket for when I have kids because it melted and burned pretty quickly) and put the small fire out before setting my room on fire. I'm just glad mom and dad weren't home because my room smelled like burnt fabric for a while. They probably would have taken away my matches had they been home.

In other news Grandma is still sick and not feeling up to cooking Christmas dinner so we're having it at our house. So tomorrow I must childproof my room against the two and a half ear old terror that is Michael. Joy

Tuesday, December 23, 2003

What Country Are You?



You're Thailand!

Calmer and more staunchly independent than almost all those around you,
you have a long history of rising above adversity.  Recent adversity has led to questions
about your sexual promiscuity and the threat of disease, but you still manage to attract a
number of tourists and admirers.  And despite any setbacks, you can really cook a good
meal whenever it's called for.  Good enough to make people cry.

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Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid

Monday, December 22, 2003

It's beginning to feel a lot like Christmas

We celebrated my brother's birthday yesterday, ah the look on his face when he realized that we'd put relighting candles on the cake was priceless. It was nice having both sides of my family together for a meal. Even if mom did send me on a few errands beforehand.

Today I got my giftwrapping done. Took me a little while to remember where I'd put everyone's gifts but I like giftwrapping and it was fun. It's starting to feel more and more like Christmas. If only we'd get some snow that'd stick though

What Precious Gem Are You?

Ruby
! You are Most Like A Ruby !
Passionate, in control - and very sexy. You tend to
be more dominant, and people long to possess your
wild nature. People find you fun, and a real live
wire.
You're most like a Ruby because people simply can't
take their eyes away from you - your bright
captivating
nature draws people to you.
Congratulations ... You're the sparkly fun gem
everybody craves.


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Saturday, December 20, 2003

A Sigh of Relief

For those of you that I had to rush off on earlier today, Grandma is ok, she just has bronchitis and an ear infection. Still, it's always hard to hear that you have a grandparent in the hospital, especially being as close to Grandma as I am. So I feel a lot better knowing that she's ok and that it's just bronchitis.

Friday, December 19, 2003

The pains of friendship

It hurts. My closest friend is going through something that I don't even want to have to imagine going through for many more years and I feel so helpless. I want to be there offering my friendship and suppory, but I can't be and it hurts so muc hseeing him so vulnerable like this. I just feel like there's something more that I could be doing...

Thursday, December 18, 2003

A little shopping

My uncle told me Monday night to come over one day this week and he'd take me shopping for new boots because I said that I wanted some. So today I made the trip to Saginaw and took my uncle shoe shopping. It was quite fun and we only had to go to two store before I found a pair of leather boots that fit well that I liked. That done we went back to the house and had steak sandwiches and fries with Grandma. I hung out and visited for a while and then headed home, stopping at the mall on the way back. I'd been thinking about buying this one book for a while and finally decided today to just do it. So I bought The Complete Idiot's Guide to Understanding Catholicism Now I just have to sit down and read it, but at the rate that I'm going through books this break, that shouldn't take very long

Jealous Kind

I built another temple to a stranger
I gave away my heart to the rushing wind
I set my course to run right into danger
I sought the company of fools instead of friends

You know I've been unfaithful
With lovers in lines
While you're turning over tables
With the rage of a jealous kind
I chose the gallows to the aisle
Thought that love would never find
Hanging ropes will never keep you
And your love of a jealous kind
Love of a jealous kind

Trying to jump away from rock that keeps on spreading
Solace in the shift of the sinking sand
I'd rather feel the pain all too familiar
Than be broken by a lover I don't understand
'cause I don't understand

You know I've been unfaithful
With lovers in lines
While you're turning over tables
With the rage of a jealous kind
I chose the gallows to the aisle
Thought that love would never find
Hanging ropes will never keep you
And your love of a jealous kind
Love of a jealous kind

Love of a jealous kind
Love of a jealous kind
Love of a jealous kind

One hundred other lovers, more, one hundred other altars
If I should slow my pace and finally subject me to grace
And love that shames the wise
Betrays the heart's deceit and lies
And breaks the back of foolish pride

You know I've been unfaithful
With lovers in lines
While you're turning over tables
With the rage of a jealous kind
I chose the gallows to the aisle
Thought that love would never find
Hanging ropes will never keep you
And your love of a jealous kind
Love of a jealous kind

Love of a jealous kind
Love of a jealous kind
Love of a jealous kind

Wednesday, December 17, 2003

Go Wings

Since I don't get Fox Sports at school, I almost forgot about the Wings game tonight. Luckily Dad turned it on and I heard it. Go Wings! 3-2 win in OT and tying for first place in the NHL. Good night.

Good news

Well the good news for today is that I woke up and there was a good 2 inches of snow on the ground. The bad news is that people don't remember how to drive in the snow. At least on this side of the state where there hasn't been adequate snow fall yet. Thank goodness for ABS in my car. They kicked in a few times today. Unfortunately, the coming of the snow means that I don't get to do my ritualistic snow dance in the backyard. Probably a good thing for the neighbors though. ;)

Also in the good news arena is that I went to my orthodontist yesterday because my retainer was bothering me. He fixed and then told me that I only have to wear it at night from now on. I love having a metal free smile. It just feels kind of wierd though, I've constantly had metal in my mouth for the past 3+ years. But I'm still happy, I'll get used to the feeling again.

Oops

I thought that there was a ROTK showing at 3 in town, so I went to the theater. Next showing wasn't until 5:35. I think that I'll wait until tomorrow and go to the 1pm showing so that no school kids are around.

Tuesday, December 16, 2003

On coming home

So last night I went to my brother's hockey game and saw a bunch of people that I haven't seen in almost a year. I felt like I should have worn a sign.

Hi, it's good to see you again too
I'm home on break
I go back to school the 5th of Jan
I did well on finals
I'm glad to be home
How are you?

Monday, December 15, 2003

Mystery
You are the mystery woman


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This and that

I've been up to a lot and not enough since I've been home. I got home about 4 Saturday afternoon and it was nice, the rest of the family was in Petosky. So I had the house to myself until about 9 that night.

Sunday, went to church with Dad at 11. Mom and the bro had gone earlier so it was just me and Dad. Came home and looked through the ads and then went to lunch and finished my Christmas shopping with mom. Picked out this totally awesome coat that I'm getting for Christmas.

Today I slept in and ran some errands. Damn my dad for sending me for stamps on the busiest mailing day of the year. I had to wait in line forever at the post office and then Mom didn't even like both designs of the stamps that I bought. After the post office I decided to stop on by my Grandma's house because I hadn't seen the house since they'd moved into it. The half hour or so that I thought I'd spend there turned into almost 2 hours. I'd forgotten how Grandma can talk so. You hear the same thing over and over.

I realized today that I've made some remarks that I've just seen as offhand remarks of frustration that have hurt some people. While that wasn't my exact intention, it happened and I haven't been watching my tongue as much as I should. I've held back on some of my harsher comments that I've wanted to make but it seems that the little ones have hurt and that wasn't my intention. I don't really forsee a major change in how I act in the future because this is how I'm coping right now, but I do take it as a sign that I need to pay a bit closer attention to what I say because even if I don't always intend them to hurt, they may hurt at times. That's something that I need to work on and I plan on it.

Saturday, December 13, 2003

Vacation

This is my last post from Big Rapids for 3 weeks. :D I'm going home! Yay, time for my first real break in a year

Friday, December 12, 2003

Thoughts on Love, Part I

Now that exams are over, I can have some time to myself again, which means that I can work on this little project of mine. The dissection of love. First up, 1 Corinthians 13:4-8, 13

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
Love is many things. It waits and does not look to hurt others. Love is humble and is quiet, it is found in the simple things in life

It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love is forgiving. it does not keep score but rather works to keep things flowing in harmony. I had a professor once say that he and his wife had an agreement never to go to bed angry. Love is not looking to hold grudges, but rather to forgive

Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
How can you have love with secrets?

It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love is always with us and we feel the safest when with those that we love because we are loved in return

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.
Love is always with us because nothing can overcome it. It may be pushed into the background, but it persevers over all. People may not realize that love is there, but it is.

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
Nothing can beat the power of love

Stella

This was stuck in my head all during my exams today. Damn you and that mesmerizing sexy voice HM! (J/K you know I luv ya)

Young man with a tear in his eye
A beginner to the broken heart
He said "Mama, no matter what glue I use, my world just falls apart"
So he packed his bags and cash
And hitchhiked up 95
And it was 2 AM
The boy's eyes were red
But he could see that skyline

Stella's going up to New York City and
I'm getting the pieces stuck in my heart
She said that she don't need me this time
This time I'm fallin'
Stella's leaving me for someday
She's got it all worked out
It ain't cool where the sun don't shine at all

There's no rest for the wicked child
And Stella hadn't slept in days
Her mind was haze of New York City, sunshine, JD, and cocaine
She was just a crazy child born
Another sign of a revolution
Sifting through the sin for who knows who

She was like "Let's go downtown tonight
I need voodoo so I don't mind dying,
Please don't let me fall asleep alone."

Stella's goin' up to New York City and
I'm getting the pieces stuck in my heart
She said that she don't need me this time
This time I'm fallin'
Stella's leaving me for someday
She got it all worked out
It ain't cool where the sun don't shine at all

Stella's going up to New York City and
I'm getting the pieces stuck in my heart
She said that she don't need me this time
This time I'll be fallin'
Stella's leaving me for someday
She's got it all worked out and
It ain't cool where the sun don't shine at all
Stella just won't slow down

Stella just won't slow down
Slow down
Slow down

Thursday, December 11, 2003

On friends

I was thinking the other day about friends. I've never really had a lot of friends. The people that were my closest friends in high school are now people that I don't want to associate myself with any longer. I really only have a few close friends here in college, but they're the type of people that I want to be around. I was thinking mainly about a friend I had back in elementary school. Tiffany. We became good friends in second grade. We quickly became inseperable, spending the night at each other's houses, mainly hers now that I think about it, often. After 3rd grade she moved out of the district but we still talked on the phone a lot and I went to her house still, but it wasn't the same. We weren't seeing each other every day and we just grew apart. I think that it was around 6th grade when we really stopped talking to each other regularly. I saw her once my senior year but we'd grown apart. It just wasn't the same again. Then there was Sarah. Sarah's a special friend. We met in 4th grade and she's mentally impaired. I was one of her first really close friends, I was the first person to invite her to a friends only sleepover for my birthday. Sarah and I were really close all through high school. When I came to college we drifted apart, but she called while I was home for Thanksgiving and we talked for a while. It was nice, we'll have to do something while I'm home on break. Friends come and go, but some are the ones that change your lives forever.

Tuesday, December 09, 2003

Random Thoughts

1. Why do telemarketers alwayscall either when you're eating a family meal or on the can?
2. Maybe I shouldn't put cookies on my printer tray anymore

Monday, December 08, 2003

The decisions of life

I feel like I'm at a point in my life where I need to make some major decisions. I'm supposed to graduate next May. If everything would have worked out this semester, I'd be going on an internship over the summer for my forensic minor, but it didn't work out. Now I'm going home this summer and I'll most likely get a job doing phlebotomy. There are just so many decisions to make. I'm not returning to this job next year because winter semester I'll be on an 18 week internship and housing doesn't really like RAs to be on clinicals or doing internships while being hired, so no more RA Amanda. Not that really matters though because I'm getting sick of this job. I'm getting sick of putting up with people's shit at 2am. I'm sick of things not being done to people when they violate university policy. I'm sick of the disrespect that people have towards authority figures, but I digress. So my dilemma becomes what do I do for housing next year. Do I move over to Bond Hall that's 21+ or do I move off campus? Right now I'm leaning towards Bond because then I can move home and do my internship at home, either at Covenant or St Mary's (and hopefully I'll get my summer job at one of those places). But if I move off of campus I could do my internship in Grand Rapids, Mt Pleasant or even here in Big Rapids and then get a job here so that I can finish my minor the next year. I really want that forensics minor because I really wouldn't mind working for the FBI or something. I think that it'd be fun. But the decision to live at home or to live at school and to do my internship at either of those places really makes that decision for me. It's only 3 more classes and a 286 hour internship that I have left for my minor, I've already taken half of the classes that I need for it and I really enjoy both my major and my minor. But I'm also starting to get sick of school, so I really don't know what to do, but I do know that if I don't finish the minor now, I'll probably never finish it, and there's a wasted $600 on classes for a minor that I'm not going to get. I feel like my world is falling apart. Not majorly, but just cracking a little.

Saturday, December 06, 2003

The Joys of Exercise

So I've swam at least a few hundred yards all except for once this week. I'm starting to hurt. I'm remembering the pains of swimming every day, but I love having those pains back. Life is good

I got a 73/76 on my lab practical! Go me! Now, to start studying for finals even though I don't have any until Wedensday...

Friday, December 05, 2003

Step 32 of my guide of how not to study should instead read "Put off studying for Friday's test until 9am Thursday morning. Take test at 9:20"

There's a lot of ugliness in the world. I wish that it'd just go away. I wish that everyone could feel safe and unthreatened by the people around them. I wish that people weren't so obsessed. I wish that people wouldn't want to hurt each other. I wish that people would learn to accept differences. I wish that people would learn how to control themselves. I wish that the world was different. This quote just popped into my head from the leadership program that I did the other day. From "Everything I need to know about leadership, I learned in kindergarten." "Just think how nice the world would be if at 3pm everyday everyone put down what they were doing and had a snack of warm cookies and milk and then laid down for a nap for an hour."

I wish that the ugliness would go away...

Thursday, December 04, 2003

How NOT to study, by AKM

1. 7am Wednesday wake up for 8am class.
2. Sit through class from 8-10
3. 10-12 relax and have lunch with friends
4. 12-2 microbiology lab
5. 2 run to Walmart to buy pop for program on Thursday and 5x8 notecards for micro exam (lost the blank ones)
6. Attempt to start notecard from 2:30-4 while simultaneously posting in the WBP
7. 4pm shower
8. 4:30 get dressed and ready for 5pm class
9. Class 5-7:30
10. 7:45 brew first pot of coffee
11. 7:50 add milk and lots of sugar to coffee and drink 3 cups while starting to study
12: 8:30 realize you need to be at meeting in half hour to recieve award, change clothes
13. 9-11 sit through boring meeting for 2 hours
14. Get back to room, finish first pot of coffee, set second to brew, turn on CD that you'll listen to for the next 4 hours
15. Study from 11-3am, drinking coffee and water
16. Print off notecards and attempt to go to bed at 3am after typing real obscure AIM away message
17. 3:15am, don't remember if you turned computer speakers off so get up to check.
18. Realize that computer speakers are off.
19. Go back to bed
20. Attempt to sleep but can't because you're too wired from the coffee
21. Fall into a light sleep for maybe 2 or 3 hours
22. Get the shit scared out of you when alarm goes off at 7:10
23. Remain in bed until 7:40
24. Arrive to chemistry late and spend 10 minutes taking 50 pt quiz
25. Go across campus to get caramel mocha
26. Return to room, throw most of mocha out because you just can't take any more coffee
27. Sleep for 1.5 hours (very lightly)
28. 11am run meeting for 5 minutes
29. Highlight key terms on note card
30. Take lab practical at noon
31. Tell yourself that next time you won't procrastinate as much.
32. Put off studying for Friday's test until 8pm Thursday night

Wednesday, December 03, 2003

Odd, all the post specific comments that people left over the last week decided to show up today. Hmmmm. Oh well, here's bitching time.

My lab practical tomorrow:
50 pts writting
25-30 points practical
Topics include: Gram Staining, Antibiotic susceptibility, every test that we've ever done and the reagents used and positive and negative controls, all media ever used and the reactions, making anaerobic environments. Bacteria include: Micrococcaceae, Streptococcaceae, Neisseria, Haemophilus, Enterobacteriaceae, Pseudomonas, Vibrio, Aeromonas, Plesiomonas, Campylobacter, Gram positive bacilli, and anaerobes. Clinical specimens include: Throat, sputum, urine, CSF, blood, genital, stool and wounds both aerobic and anaerobic.

It's gonna be a sleepless night...

Tuesday, December 02, 2003

I think that my dissection of love is just going to have to wait. My teachers are awful right now. As if I don't have enough to do with 4 comprehensive finals next week, I have a 50pt quiz and a 2 hour lab practical on Thursday and then on Friday I have an exam. [sarcasm] Yay! Go me! [/sarcasm] Why do my teachers hate me so?

Monday, December 01, 2003

For the next however long it takes, I'm going to attempt to define love. I once thought that I knew what love was and that I was in love with the guy that I was going to spend the rest of my life with and that I was going to marry. He'd actually asked me and I'd said yes, but that's another story. I didn't really love him, I was 19 and didn't know what love is. I'm 20 now and I'm still not sure that I know what love is, but I know that I have a better idea of what it is then I did 9 months ago. I was more in love with the idea of being in love. Now I've been single again since March and I've examined my own needs and what I think love is, but I'm going to start focusing on it. My next post I'll be tearing apart 1 Corinthians about love. I'm going to attempt to define the single most hardest thing that there is to define. Love.