I want...

I want to be able to stop some of my medications. I want to stop the pain meds because they make me constipated. I want to be better again. I want to be off the anti-depressant because even though I know the holidays were a food fest, especially with a funeral thrown in, I didn't eat good but I think that I'm holding onto an extra pound or two because of the antidepressant. I want to be able to stop going to therapy because the pain is driving me insane. I want my life back!